Tag: shame

Is this Attachment ?
Or trauma response?
Clarifying too much?
Or explaining too little?
Wanting to be seen?
Or wanting to disappear?
Do I share?
Do you care?
Am I too much?
Is this significant?
Do I make you happy?
Or am I never there?
Do I like the way we show up?
Or it should have been different?
Is it an expression?
Or am I seeking validation?
Oh yes, I see the wounds!
Yes, I am scared!
How do I heal them?
Will someone fix it for me?
Or is it for me to recover?
This void, has always existed.
How to fill it?
No one taught me!
Was it love? I lost it?
Or did love never exist?
And, I thought it did!
Why did I not say what was true to me?
Why did I repeat what was expected?
Why did I say less?
Why did I skew?
Why did I stayed longer?
Giving too many chances?
What did I want?
What did I do?
What did I see?
What did I not know?
Why was it not easy, to just be?
Staying for too long?
Or leaving too early?
Shaming? Blaming?
Criticizing? Praising?
Holding? Scolding?
Pursuing? Avoiding?
Escaping? Fantasizing?
Expectations? Disappointments?
Connection? Disassociation?
Who do I have to prove anything?
Whose approval am I seeking?
Who taught me that only difficult roads led to beautiful places?
Maybe, for me, magnificence might exist in simple settings!
Who are we trying to prove our worthiness?
Could light be appreciated, if darkness didn’t exist?
Will we ever stop living in the boxes?
When will we discard the “what if’s”?
Pause. Reflect.
Is this a mental imagery?
Is this making sense?
Or is this a labyrinth of quicksand?
Where one thought is giving way to another?
For once, I know,
There are no answers!