Let them be

Picture Source : your teen magazine

I sat there on my teacher chair.
Thinking and pondering,
For as a mother, I have been guilty,
For being a part of the belief-
Children are my reflection,
They are like me.
It’s every parent’s proud fallacy!
Have you ever wondered?
Why, why do I want them to be like me?
Why is it important for them to make me happy?
What is it if not a boost to my ego?
What about their own identity?
I see them kids try-hard.
They try with all their heart.
They let themselves be lead into our dream.
That was never their own, in the first place.
What price they pay, no one sees.
The hollow social system of appeasement and puppetry!
Do we question? Do we?
We are leading them into drudgery.
Slaves of a faulty society, Where fish is judged on its ability to climb trees!
What a plight to see,
The happy faces ushered to slavery!
High frustrations, drugs, and whatnot
Where are those teenagers, carefree?
Where in world can peace dwell?
No darkness can disappear when you choose hell!
Mindless desires, useless comparisons, nothing can be ever enough.
I am, what I am supposed to be.
I don’t need children to be, the extensions of me!
Just let them be!

There are no answers!

Right Questions?

Is this Attachment ?
Or trauma response?
Clarifying too much?
Or explaining too little?
Wanting to be seen?
Or wanting to disappear?
Do I share?
Do you care?
Am I too much?
Is this significant?
Do I make you happy?
Or am I never there?
Do I like the way we show up?
Or it should have been different?
Is it an expression?
Or am I seeking validation?
Oh yes, I see the wounds!
Yes, I am scared!
How do I heal them?
Will someone fix it for me?
Or is it for me to recover?
This void, has always existed.
How to fill it?
No one taught me!
Was it love? I lost it?
Or did love never exist?
And, I thought it did!
Why did I not say what was true to me?
Why did I repeat what was expected?
Why did I say less?
Why did I skew?
Why did I stayed longer?
Giving too many chances?
What did I want?
What did I do?
What did I see?
What did I not know?
Why was it not easy, to just be?
Staying for too long?
Or leaving too early?
Shaming? Blaming?
Criticizing? Praising?
Holding? Scolding?
Pursuing? Avoiding?
Escaping? Fantasizing?
Expectations? Disappointments?
Connection? Disassociation?
Who do I have to prove anything?
Whose approval am I seeking?
Who taught me that only difficult roads led to beautiful places?
Maybe, for me, magnificence might exist in simple settings!
Who are we trying to prove our worthiness?
Could light be appreciated, if darkness didn’t exist?
Will we ever stop living in the boxes?
When will we discard the “what if’s”?
Pause. Reflect.
Is this a mental imagery?
Is this making sense?
Or is this a labyrinth of quicksand?
Where one thought is giving way to another?
For once, I know,
There are no answers!