Freedom means to me…
Living with authenticity,
Conducting with integrity,
Whole hearted acceptance,
With knowledge, dispelling ignorance.
Where there is peaceful atmosphere
Where people are conscious and do care.
It may be Utopia or my imagination,
Hope, one-day, my dream is a manifestation
It was in pain we had connected…
It is the pain that is tearing us….apart!
Sometimes there is a pattern in the pain
It rises till you are insane,
When you cannot tolerate anymore.
You space out, numb till you feel it no more!
And then it makes an exit.
Yes, pain can be addictive!
It is taking me infinity,
To understand myself.
The moment I think I know me,
I end up surprsing myself!
“My heart is a mess ” by Cold Play was an ear worm today. It is echoing in my ears. Non stop!
It is strange how life throws out on us, what we fear. We fear – fear!
And out there it stands. At every step. The mind is intricate and complex. Thoughts arise, fly high and sink to depth. Along with these thoughts are the heart and emotion attached. These thoughts pain, strain and depress. One minute I am happy and planning ahead. The next minute, the emotions are intense.
Clouds rise in the brain. It heavily rains. The water flows through my eyes, yet I manage to smile. There is immense pain. Oh, what is this game? Why can’t I go back in time? Why can’t I adjust my pace? Why can’t I breathe with ease? Thought like threads intertwine. They entangle and they strangle.
I wish I would get up one morning with my mind as a clean slate. A blank mind…a blank life.
What would I now create? With my heart in dumps and head in mess! It might end up in the same plight.
I fear, my fear is pushing me to the edge… Alright!
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| Sukhna Lake Chandigarh |
If I don’t meet your criteria of success,
Or the present social norms,
If I don’t dress the way you want,
Or choose not to respond to your taunt.
To you I am either noob or wrong!
I refuse to take it any more!
I don’t need any validation,
For being who I am!
I belong to myself and my timeline!
My journey is unique in every way,
So, ponder and reflect before you say.
It would be wonderful for us,
And the world would be a better place.
If we respect each others opinions and space!
It’s the perspective we need to re-set
Drop the stereotypical thinking and accept-
Ourselves and others in every aspect!
~ Monika
The restlessness that sometimes sets in, disturbs me! There is an unexplained connection between us that intrigues me… There is part of my heart that rebels. It wants to break free from all the social norms… I wish either this heartache is gone or I begone!
~ Monika
Musings - An Endeavour to writing 